ever feel like you don't know which way to go because you don't know what God has planned for your life? i need directions, i feel lost.
i just want to be a mom, i want to stop feeling like i'm losing my mind because i occasionally talk to my dogs like they are actually my children. i want to feel complete.
what if God doesn't intend for us to have biological children? what if we are wasting time, money, and heart on fertility treatments? what if his plans for us include adoption? why are we waiting?
i don't know why i'm particularly frustrated today. i'm the type of person who isn't very fond of waiting once i am ready to go somewhere, it applies here too. i've been ready to be a mom for over three years.
we have an appointment with a specialist soon. i'm not sure what to expect, not even completely sure what to hope for. here's hoping for some sort of answer.